I have so many things that need to be shared… I would love to update you on Bronson, share things about his journey and let all of you, that honestly care, know of his progress, but the outrage and internet suckage have left me with a really yucky taste in my mouth. So for now, I will wait.
I spent most of the weekend sulking, pouting and being really pissed off that I had to deal with that shit. I have enough shit in my life without adding the one thing that's supposed to be a joy to the shit list. Blogging as a hobby is supposed to be FUN! Yeah right!
I have had ZERO desire to unload here. This has been the fourth time I have been a victim on Chicken Liver's site, and I HATE IT! Internet BULLIES must be stopped. They are mean, snarky, and horrible. In an attempt to make the world a better place, I have an appointment tomorrow to get a little botox. God forbid the mother with fifteen kids, and an insane business, look a little rough around the edges.
I was going back and forth on whether to write the "farewell post" or just hit the delete button. I have been blue! Yes, I have been here before and I have either written myself out of it, or started my period, one way or the other I have been able to pull myself out of the funk.
Today, I credit Loralee. I adore this woman so much. Go over and read her post today.
DId you read it? If you don't read it, you won't understand what I am saying, so go now, I will wait.
If I give up, if I let these idiots win, I will be telling the world, "I am a coward." Truthfully, I am afraid. I don't like being hated, it's not my favorite thing. But if I lack the courage to continue sharing my story the way I want to share it, I am a wimp. Mother's of fifteen are not wimpy.
Thank you Loralee for giving a far more eloquent voice to my thoughts than I ever could.
I am terrified.
I am scared.
I am fearful.
BUT I AM NOT A COWARD!
I will continue sharing.
I will continue writing.
and I will continue doing both honestly.
*deep breath*
and just in case you didn't know me…….
You know, I found your blog through that site too, so perhaps a small thank you note to CL is in order? She is clearly upping your readership.
Bullies are bullies are bullies..it doesn't matter whether you are 10 years old or 40, the reasons behind bullying are all the same. It comes down to jealousy. When someone has something that a bully could never possibly have..like integrity, writing ability, fans…a life, they can't stand it so they tear it down in the hopes that their own life will somehow look better to themselves or others.
The truth is CL has nothing. No life. She can say she does and she can cluck on about how much she gives and helps and yada yada yada, but its a crock. She can cloak her nasty behaviour as some kind of altruistic solving of the worlds ills, but the truth is (and most people see it, even if they don't have the balls to admit it to her) she is a little girl that doesn't have the pony that the other kids have. Because truly, if she really had no respect for you or what you do she would be bored and would not continue to come here and read and dissect and use you as blog fodder. The fact that you continue to be the highlight of her posts just shows her jealousy.
After spending entirely too much time on CL's site, reading that they've read what's written over here, it's obvious she will never answer the question…What purpose does what she writes about you (or any of the people who leave comments over there, which in fact, DO spew venom and HATE!), or anyone else for that matter, serve?
Michele/Chicken Liver…until you can answer that question, and validate your existence on your little hovel you call a website, you are little more than a mouthpiece for all of the people who have little better to do than peck around in the dirt, searching for grubs and worms…but then, that's what chicken's do in the first place, isn't it?
What is the point of alleging that Sandi, or Dooce, or anyone else is mentally ill (some of you out there could actually be held liable for your words which are IN FACT libelous!) etc? It's obvious she's not going to stop blogging…and why should she?
So what purpose does your existence on the internet serve other than as a place for a bunch of reprobates to sit around and denigrate others who you don't know, don't like and are most probably envious of?
Sandi, in the end, do what makes you happy. And stop paying any attention to Michele/CL. Eventually someone will either haul her ass into court, or shove a mirror so far up her ass that for once she'll realize she is every fucking bit as guilty of doing what she accuses everyone else of doing. If anyone is exploiting anyone else, it's her! And for what?
When people have no confidence in themselves they must darken the light of the people they envy. You have courage and strength. You BLOG. She GOSSIPS. You SHARE. She SHREDS. There is no doubt that you love each and every one of your children. The fact that you can parent with humor and have the appropriate levity for the deep stuff says a lot more about your abilities than her wanna-be-you-snarky-comments.
When you hate yourself you have nothing but hate to give others.
Keeping the prayers for Bronson & your entire family going!
Hey Sandi, it seems that this site only gets satisfaction when you or Dooce react. And you both do. Ignore these people, they do not know you but clearly are jealous of you. What you do on your blog is express your views what they are doing is tearing popular bloggers down. Don't look at their blog and they cannot hurt you. They are worse than any teenagers I know. Bitchy, backstabbing and spiteful. It is pathetic and sad. All designed to attract readers. Only hurt people hurt others. Feel sorry for her and ignore them. They will go away. They are bullying you, so do not read and can you ban them from your blog? You dont need the crap and do not give up your blog – its important to you and you are important. If all else fails I would stop comments like Dooce does and only open them up for some posts. This blogs is yours and your readers will still come by and read. Take Care xxxx
Please don't every stop blogging. WE love you!
Hi there… I tried to email you earlier this morning about an earlier post you made (Sep 2009) regarding "Chicken Liver"… I copied myself in the email and it never reached my mailbox, so now I'm wondering if you got it or it got lost in cyberspace… at any rate, let me know, if you don't mind. I just found your blog today, but am a suvivor of she who plagues you… I'd love to commiserate… and help your lawyer if you are still in that boat… email me, okay?
Peace.
Sandi — Lilly is a gazillion percent right! Michele can not gain attention unless she attaches her wagon to success. She is pathetic and so are her sheep. As tough as it is you must ignore them. Your misery is her success because she is frustrated, insecure, miserable and obviously sucks at life.
You are allowing 1% of negativity you get from the undserving to have more power than 99% of positive, appreciative, followers. This place is very cathartic for you and it has become a place of that for most of your readers. Don't punish yourself and all of us Michele has no other way to attrack fellow morons than to attack successful, happy, talented, writers. These Micheleorons (HA!! I crack myself up!) are not deserving of another moment of your angst.
Delete, ignore, delet, ignore….
xxoo
Forgive all of my typos!
The problem is everyone lives in their own reality. Nothing anyone says will convince Cl that she is wrong. She really believes that by calling out behaviour she perceives as *bad* will stop the behaviour. And the very fact that she can upset Sandi thrills her. So the more everyone comments about CL and the more Sandi talks about how upset she is, the more powerful CL feels. The very best thing anyone can do is to completely ignore her. And I realize that is hard. But once you understand that there is absolutely nothing you can do to change CL, you can change your own response to her. Just stop validating her. She and her group have zero power and they know that. Let them spew their opinions over there in the coop and don't comment about it here or there. Pretend her site doesn't exist.
Touche' Sue!
I read the hateful blog….and she is INSANE! I know that it is easier said than done -but I wouldn't pay much attention to anything she says. She is all in it for the shock factor. Funny how she recruits readers by being a hateful b*%&^ since she has nothing of interest to say.