I got home too late. My "winner pickers" are all in bed.
I will post the drawing and the winner tomorrow.
STAY TUNED!
Archive for July, 2009
26
Jul
Wanted
Sitting on flight 5973 from Chicago to Atlanta, I landed moments ago, with blackberry in hand, I turn it on. Before I even have a chance to dial Brandon and let him know I am on the ground, I receive a text message from him. It was sent an hour before, and it contains three little words. On my screen, for my eyes only, are the words, “I want you.”
The butterflies in my tummy spring to life and flutter around. My temperature rises and my face flushes. This man, the man I am head over heels in love with, knows how to take my breath away.
We have been through more in four years than most couples go through in twenty. He has seen me at my worst, in my ugly moments, in my weakest state, and yet he still wants me.
He wants me in every way, not just sexual. Though I am sure his text is loaded with desire, I KNOW I am wanted as more than just a sexual partner. I feel amazingly confident being his wife. I know he wants me by his side raising our family. He wants me in the darkest of hours and scariest of times. He also wants me in the best of times and in our happiest moments. It is an honor to be wanted by this guy.
Those three little words lifted me and will carry me all the way home to his arms.
Homebound is a great place to be.
Happy Birthday Brandon-
I am over the moon in love with you. I hope to spend the rest of my life showing you how much you mean to me and how grateful I am to be your wife. I want to link my fingers in yours and tangle legs with you in bed. I want to feel your body behind mine, and your breath on my neck. I want to wake up to you everyday and marvel over and over again how lucky I am to be yours.
You do it for me baby.
I can’t wait to be in your arms again.
Five and half hours,
I’m counting the seconds.
Happy Birthday!!!
25
Jul
So…BlogHer…
I learned
I am really happy with my blog, my readers, and my life.
I am proud of living out loud right here on the internet and I will continue to do so.
I have a story to share and I LOVE sharing it.
I live without fear of freaks and without fear of judgement.
I invite you all into my heart, my mind and my family with every post.
and I will continue to do so.
I LOVE BLOGGING!
I love sharing my life with you.
Thank you for being part of it.
Brandon- cold hard cash
Sandi- money money money$$$
Bronson- BOOKS ($250 dollar gift card to amazon)
Shaylee- Photography and music ($250 gift card to best buy)
Hunter- Ipod touch
Ty- Tickets to a sporting event in your area
Hadley- Gift card valued at $275 for day at the spa
Jayden- Nintendo Wii
Colby- Nintendo Wii
Dalin- $250 gift card to Home Depot
Jace- $250 to Dicks Sporting goods
Jasmine- New Clothes (gift card to Nordstrom)
Kate-New clothes (gift card to gap)
Pickle- Loves FOOD (gift cards to restaurants)
Parker- Loves to eat ($250 in groceries.)
Ellie-Likes comfort (we will pay $400 of your utilities)
One of these prizes is up for grabs. I hope we can give one away per month. We will draw the winner and the prize Sunday night.
All you have to do is leave a comment. Right here, right now. Contest ends Sunday at 7pm pacific. Winner will be contacted by Monday and posted as quickly as possible.
Remember only one entry per person.
*My children are not allowed to enter this contest. If you haven’t enter a "favorites" giveaway before, please see offical rules and how-to play here.
22
Jul
As I prepare to leave…
Me- You all know that I am leaving in the morning and won’t be home until Sunday?"
Jasmine- "Where are you going now?"
Me- I am going to BlogHer in Chicago, to meet my blog friends.
Hadley- "Why aren’t you taking us? We’re the stars of the blog. Don’t you think people will want to meet the stars?"
…and that’s why we wont be doing a reality TV show….. EVER!
21
Jul
Today
We had swimming lessons-
Then we raced like crazy people to Anaheim for Jazzi’s hairdo.
I left Shaylee in Anaheim with Jazzi so I could do the other hundred things I had to today. In fact, I haven’t even seen Jazzi at the writing of this post. She is in bed asleep and I am only getting to see the pictures. Thank you Shay for doing this most unpleasant job and taking pictures for me.
Meanwhile…
Ty got his braces on-
He is such a pansy. He was excited and terrified and he continued to talk to us even with this contraption in his mouth.
"I done?"
"No, not yet."
"Almost?"
"No Ty, stop talking."
"Not scary huh?"
"Shut up Ty, you keep getting your teeth wet."
"I good huh?"
"SHHHHHHHH"
Ty looks around
"I done?"
…
He gave the office a run for their money.
I made it home from Ty’s appointment just in time to get Kate to ballet, sans Jazzi, and Jace to his swim meet. We were late, but we made it for a warm up.
Brandon returned to Anaheim in the traffic to fetch the girls and made it back just in time to witness our boy kick some ass in the meet. I can’t wait to see the official results of this heat because I think Jace may have won it. BUT, we will happily take a second. Jace is a force!
I didn’t think I could pull it all off this morning, but we did it. "We" being the key word.
I had to pee when we were at Brandon’s parent’s house. I think it may have been the first time in my life I was comfortable enough to use their bathroom. Anyway, I walked in and then walked right back out to get my camera. These are hanging over the toilet in his house. These same prints were hanging in the hallway of the house I grew up in my whole life.
Is this just a Bountiful Utah thing, or did we all have these on our walls in the 70’s?
How about the wooden fork and spoon on the wall? You know, the ones that were taller than we were. Brandon’s mom has those too. I can take a trip down memory lane just visiting their home.
What did you all have on your walls? DId you live among the wallpaper like the rest of us?
Now that the alcohol has left my system, and I am back home in my own circus, I can clearly see that I was blogging while buzzed and clearly it’s not a great combination. But the post stands as a wonderful reminder of how much fun I had and how very happy I was to see everyone. It’s also a fantastic reminder why I need to be done dabbling in the alcohol. I AM DONE!
I could go on and on about why I am done, and maybe later I will. But for now, I need to rely on my own convictions and not those of anyone else. I am not drinking again.
Okay, moving on.
This is the wild bunch we got to hang out with all weekend. I love these people. I was not best friends in high school with any of these guys, but it seems they like Brandon so much, they have let me in their clique. Brandon has blessed me with many things, but his friends were not one of them. All of Brandon’s friends were "Team Becky" when he bailed. So, having this group of people actually want to hang with us, in spite of our dirt, means the world to me. I do feel it’s important to mention that only Dave and Dusty read me, so the others truly don’t know who they are hanging out with. That may be why they like me so much. Here’s to hoping they never find the blog.
The entire trip was perfect. We had plenty of alone time, so Brandon had his "birthday sex" one week early. Since we were hanging out with this wild bunch, Dave ever so kindly offered to share his recreational viagra. Thank you Dave. Truth be told, his wife wouldn’t allow him to pop one, so Brandon happily took one for the team. In reality, I took one for the team. You’re welcome Dave.
We got to play with the boys for a few hours. They are growing up so fast. I LOVE this picture. It’s going in a frame and on my nightstand. Too cute!
I sent a picture to my grandma last week and she called and asked me who the girl was with Brandon and Hunter. It was me, of course, but she didn’t recognize me without the blonde hair. She was equally as shocked to see me in real life when I walked in her back door. I LOVE my grandparents.
Brandon’s grandparents are worlds greatest! Are they the cutest things you have ever seen? We stopped in Nephi on the way home and I played with the chickens, picked fruit out of the garden, and caught up with my grandma Wendy. She likes me. 
We had a fabulous little trip home. We can talk for twelve solid hours and not run out of things to say. We didn’t hit traffic until we passed Vegas, and then we sat on I-15 for two hours moving maybe 10 MPH. I HATE traffic.
I took this picture in Primm, where it happened to be 106 degrees and windy as hell. The traffic in the far lane is South bound of course. We stopped, and ate, and filled the gas tank. Brandon begged me to get a room so we could have one more romp in the hay and then wake up at 3AM and get home in time to put the kids on the bus. I have to admit, I was tempted, but the thoughts of my looming laundry outweighed everything. Dirty laundry is worse than a cold shower. Clean laundry, now that’s the ticket to paradise.
I am off to the laundry room. See you in…. like a month.
18
Jul
Twenty years of REAL LIFE
I am so glad I decided to attend. SO GLAD! I have had a blast this entire weekend. Brandon is getting the birthday sex trip he so deserves, and it has helped that I have regressed twenty years in the last two days, so I am a wee bit wilder and the sex may be a wee bit better.
I can’t believe how surrounding yourself with old friends can make you feel seventeen again. Or maybe it’s just me?
Anyway,
I have learned a few things in the past few days that i need to share.
First- I no longer care that Nicole had sex with my Ex in his CRX before he met me. It used to eat me alive. It was all I thought about when I saw her. Not anymore. I spent much of the weekend hanging out with Nicole and I love her! YAY!
Second-I am a flirt. i didn’t ever know this until now. Poor Brandon is not too happy about this side of me. BUT I only flirt with harmless people, or so I think.
Third-I am one guy "purer" than I thought I was. Finding out this crucial piece of information overshadowed my entire evening. I also had a few drinks, and I may have hyper focused a bit on this one guy, i mean, piece of information. All my life I thought I had hooked up with six different people. Forever, my number of sexual partners has been SIX! Last night, I lost one of those numbers. I am shocked and dumbfounded about this. Why would I have ever counted him in that number of people? Why would I say I had, if I hadn’t? When that "number" walked in last night, I wrapped myself around him and may have humped his leg a little, I am not sure. But In the conversation that followed, I was told we didn’t ever go all the way.
I was like WTF?
How did that happen? What do you mean we never got it on?
…and then I proceeded to ask anyone and everyone that would have known this information 20 plus years ago, if I had or had not had sex with Paul?
The answers were all unanimous.
NOPE.
NEVER.
NO WAY!
I feel extremely confused and puzzled and can’t quite understand how he became one of my sexual partners if he never was.
It was like I was living in the twilight zone. I am still sitting here now, shaking my head.
Can we all together say, "WHAT THE HELL?"
Yeah, that’s how I feel.
Other than that, the reunion was perfect. It was everything I hoped it would be.
I learned that I retain much stronger and more vivid memories of my childhood than I do my teenage years. If I went to elementary school with you, I will know you and recognize you without a doubt. If I only attended high school with you, the odds are not in my favor.
I had a darling couple, Shane and Michelle, approach me, I went to elementary with Shane, but supposedly they lived in my old neighboorhood in 97-98 in Woods Cross. I don’t remember that. I have ZERO recollection of them being my neighbors, but I remember Shane when he was ten. It’s crazy how my brain works. I may have blocked out huge portions of my life, but I remember Muir Elementary.
I wish I would have had more time to see more people. I was sad that some people chose not to come. I wish I could have seen and talked to everyone. To all of you BHS 89 Alumni, I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!
I know I have said this ten times already, but I am SOOO glad I came. I have really awesome friends and Brandon HAD to meet them. I have ZERO regrets.
That’s a PERFECT WEEKEND!
17
Jul
Missing my baby
I am missing Parker so much. Shaylee recorded this on her phone and sent it to me. I have watched it a dozen times. He thinks it’s funny when Shaylee raises her eyebrows. Go figure.